FILIBINI TURNED BANGALI?

Maybe you’re wondering what does the subject stand for. If you think that this Filipino is not a nationalist or maybe not loyal to his country because he turned into a Bangladesh native, you are way way wrong. He is still a Filipino. What I am implying is, this Filipino has a very, very bad attitude. His fellow Filipinos don’t want to mingle with him because they can’t understand what kind of way of thinking he has. Some fellow Filipino call him snake because he do or say something harmful to somebody after pretending to be a friend. Others call him wolf because he is like a wild animal that will swallow you alive after you gave him all what he wants.....

I remember the sayings, “in every forest, there is a snake”. I never challenged this coz I think this is factual and the most accurate adage I have ever heard. Honestly to my understanding, I always meet up these kinds of people anywhere I wander and hang about for a while. And there goes this Filibini turned Bangali. I feel nauseous when I see this guy. It’s so disgusting to look at him. Though I’m a Filipino too, I can’t bear to be with a Filipino just like him.....

Why I’m saying this? Am I deducing these kinds of people for their very, very bad attitude but never impaired me at all? Nah…I’m actually aggravated by these people who have a lunatic way of thinking. Ahaha! They should be hanged before the eyes of the abused public. Believe me! They are like wolves that frightened the feeble. Don’t argue with me. Haven’t you heard about a proverb which says, “He who believes in the wolf, becomes a snake. Why not give them a chance? A big NO! A wolf doesn’t become a sheepdog. They changed its coat but not its way.....

To end this, take this piece of advice. DO NOT SOCIALIZE WITH THESE PEOPLE. They will bite you to death! Curse them all! If you see one like him, RUN!!! Ahaha! If you have a gun, point straight to his brain and BANG! Ooopss! I’m sorry. Almost forgot. These people have no brains. They think but only for themselves. They are certified SELFISH! They are mentally ill! They should be isolated. They should be place in one cluster. Question is, CAN THEY STAND EACH OTHER’S ATTITUDE?!!! BWAHAHAHA!!!....

POEMS ESPECIALLY MADE BY MY BESTFRIEND

GLIMPSE OF YESTERYEARS

(I have a thought that this is intended for me)

You gave me a smile that lingers in my mind
And that "I've got a crush on you" feeling
Then we became what you call "best of friends"

One day you drew me closer to you
You gave me a stare that penetrated my soul
A sensation I can never forget
You asked me what I have for you
But I didn't have the courage to say "I LOVE YOU"
Is it because you have never said you love me too?
Or am I afraid to break the rule which I was taught to follow?
To this day I can't get you out of my mind
Even in my dreams your stare begs me to stay
This time you asked what I want from you
Now was my opportunity to let you know
But why can't I have the courage
If this would be my only chance of having you
All I can say is...
"To let you know this might help me forget about you
I have someone who may have replaced my love for you
Because he has the courage to say he loves me too and I believe he is true"

But then again, I can't have either of you!

MY ONLY GIRL

(She created this for her only daughter)

My little baby is turning into a beautiful lady!
This will be my first time to greet her away from me.
Despite all circumstances,
We try to meet just to be with each other.
Now, no matter how I try to touch and kiss her
On her special day, it’s impossible coz I won't be there.
She wishes nothing more but to drive a car of her own.
Isn't so simple, a party no more.
Papa will take care of what she wanted that day.
Though I can see the sadness in her eyes.
Trying to understand the reasons why.
Oh my little baby who I will miss so dearly.
Hope I had a wings to fly and be at your side.
My beautiful lady just look up in the sky.
We will be seeing the same bright star.
Just read what it says, "I love you bebe mama is here."
The wind, though you may not see.
Just feel the breeze touching your face.
That is my touch to send you my love.

I love you my baby and you'll soon be a beautiful lady

You do not look like me but the way you are, is a mirror image of me.
You always try to be independent, but I know you are fragile.
Just a hug, and all your fears are gone.
You always want Mama to decide, coz you believe she knows best.
I'm sending you a line directly to Him.
Just keep it open and make a call every time you feel down.
He will never fail someone so precious like you are.
Oh my little baby, I will miss you so much.
Take care of your siblings
I know you can be a good one.
Let Mama know if you want something.
Nothing will change, MY ONLY GIRL!

THE OTHER SIDE OF ME

(Without a doubt, this is her)

I asked God for a simple life
A life full of surprises amidst difficulties
Would rather struggle than be in a smooth road
Living a difficult life on earth
Means a happier life after death.

Grateful when I am in trouble
Never afraid nor lose hope
This is my chance for a time with Him
Time to talk, time to cry
Time to feel His spirit that engulfs me.

I let God rule my life
Be thankful for all the things, people and events
He brings my way.
To help me choose and decide
What will really make me happy in life.

I am not perfect
Cause I am only human
Yearning for freewill
To feel how it is to love, and be loved
Even get hurt.

I consider hurt
As my cross that will lead me to heaven.
Instead of hatred
I fill my heart only with love
So that I may live a peaceful life.

I Pray for those who belittle me
I Pray for those who judge me
I Pray for those who curse me
And I pray that one day
These people will know the real me.

Those who wish for a simple life
Sometimes wants to be in my world
The world I created for myself
A world no one can understand
Only me and the One who created me.

LOVING YOU

(I guess this is for her ex?)

Some believe what we call "love at first sight". Love struck, it is a chance that anyone wishes to feel. Staying in lovewith that person is another thing... its a choice we have to make. We have to accept all shortcomings, negatives and everything you discovered and will discover to that person. And when we love, we must also accept the fact that we will be hurt. No need for us to complain then. When you are badly hurt.... and its your decision to fall out of love.

When we are in love, we must bear the pain. because staying in that situation is our choice. why blame others? why blame our partners? we are doing this as defense mechanism, so it will not hurt us more.

Being in love is an inexplicable feeling. You can see only beauty, hopes and forever. Once we get hurt, why we forget to look into that beauty, hopes and forever to help us ease the pain so we may continue loving. Its another choice we have to make.

Hurt will lead us to do many things, worse is when we can not control our temper... not even tame our tongue. Hurting the ones we love, emotionally, mentally and the worst is physically. Everything will be totally different from how we started. What is bad about this, too many people find it easier to decide to fall out of love than to keep the flame of love burning.

Then love another, doing the same thing. What a cycle? It seems that we are not tired of falling in love because of the feeling it gave us.

• "you've got to love me for what I am, for simply being me"
• be happy with what you have
• think you are luckier than anyone else
• look into the negative of others, so you will see more of the beauty of your partner
• give the best you can, for you not to regret things you were not able to do.
• BUT... keep something for yourself.

in the long run, things will be on its right path. No self-pity, no jealousy, no hatred. No regret.

LOVE IS A COMPROMISE, MORE UNDERSTANDING AND ITS A GIVE AND TAKE, TRUST AND RESPECT. Love unconditionally, yet keep your own identity. Love is not you alone, but two to become one.

The one I love is not the person meant for me to live for the rest of my life. Only a love to teach me things in life, to make me a become a better person and thought me how to love more and my cross who lead me closer to the ONE I must serve the most.

Thanks for the love, the time, the effort, the pain and everything, especially the kids, the most precious reward i got from loving you!

THE SWEET LADY BEHIND A SCREAMING MOMMY

(This was her imagination for her boss' daughter who turned 18)

The little baby has turned into a sweet lady
With tears and laughter behind a screaming mommy.
A mom who is a survivor with a strength and faith no one can deny.
The sweet lady she thinks is very lazy to do the things
That can turn her to be like her mommy.

The Sweet Lady...

Though I look like I'm not listening
My heart is screaming
"Mommy! Stop thinking I am nothing"
Please have some faith that I can achieve something.


Though I tried and failed
I am learning from behind
I made a choice but never succeeded.
Now I’ve turned into something long I've been yearning.

I will do my best to give you the very best.
I am the only one and there can never be another one
To prove your worth as a screaming mom.
Please tone down your voice and let our hearts converse.

DO I KNOW WHAT CAN MAKES ME TRULY HAPPY

(Just an emotional friend who's trying everything but always she fail like me)

I used to say “Hay Naku!” it means like asking, Why life is always like this? Why life was sometimes cruel and most of the time uncooperative? In life, it’s always a different scenario or a different meaning everyday. We easily forget the times that makes us feel good, the moments and feelings we don’t want to end. Often we find ourselves being consumed or eaten up by problems that we don’t even realize it’s just a part of living.

We heard and read a lot about how to make life easier, though the Bible says it all, is there an interest in our part to read and internalize the real message of it? Then, we are still drowned in the waves of tests and trials, leading us to become a different person. It changes us on how to deal with life. It made us so indifferent, that we almost forget the real purpose of being in the realm of despair. We may hurt ourselves or others, even both. Was it because we almost lose our faith? Or forget what we have learned from our past experiences?

Whatever events come in our lives, can you notice some sort of connections that binds everything leading us to the way of perfection? What seems to be a perfect life to us? Is there a perfect life? If I say yes, would you beg to disagree? Or try to figure it out?

Isn’t it a perfect life is simply knowing what we really want? Was it simply asking ourselves, "what can make me happy?" Is this happiness already felt before and we let ourselves travel back in time and be at the moment? Or travel in the future to still search for that moment? Or there is a deeper way of knowing what can truly make us happy? Could we simply based this on how it made us laughed?

Have you tried every opportunity that comes your way? Or just ignored it because of the fear of failure? Isn’t it so disgusting to have a lifetime of asking ourselves, what if I have done this or that? Or some kind of a nightmare that haunts us when all else fails? Or just an escape to deny that we didn’t manage our life the way it can make us happy?

Does trying every opportunity can lead us knowing what we really want in our lives? Was this already planned? Have a better picture of how we wanted to see ourselves in the future?

So many questions, but the answers are so few…

NEVERTHELESS, WHAT CAN TRULY MAKES US HAPPY?

My Favorite Quotes

Here are some of my favorite quotes. You can find more just click on the link below.

http://www.boardofwisdom.com/default.asp?topic=1003&search=jojo_javier

• To tell you the truth I don’t have much to offer. But I’ll still give you everything I’ve got, even if it’s barely a thing at all. I’ll give you late nights, long hugs. Someone to talk to, someone to care for, someone who will always be there. A hand to hold, somebody to lean on. And if that’s not enough, just know you have all of me. I hope that’s enough.

• Some say I've changed. I'd like to say I've found myself.

• Last night I have a dream. You were smiling at me while holding my face with your two hands. "Don't be sad. I won't leave you for long. And don't cry baby. I'll carry all our memories wherever I go..wherever I am. Would you forget my smile?"...Then I opened my eyes..you were gone..tears fell out my eyes...that was 3 years ago..I've moved on...almost forgot everything...but not your smile...

• For a few moments in my life, you made me feel as if I truly meant Something to Someone.

• Someday I’ll have my own walk to remember, I’m gonna write my own fairytale and one day my heart will sink deeper than the titanic.

• Oh really? I didn’t know I was bothering you. And I wonder, you're still talking to me. And that bothers me too.

• Love? Depends on the person. Joy? I am happy most of the time. Peace? Sure, when things are going well. Patience? I have some, until somebody makes me lose it! Kindness? I am a pretty nice person. Goodness? I am better than some people I know. Faithfulness? I usually do what I promise most of the time. Gentleness? Depends on how you define it. Self-Control? There are areas where I could use some more. Doesn't everybody?

• I will never regret the day I've met you though it's not the day I wanted it to be.

• Unexpectedly, I have fallen for you.

• To end a relationship is to forget. To forget is to move on. To move on is to have a new beginning. A new beginning for a new soul. A new soul for a new heart. A new heart to make a new wound. A wound to end up hurting. Damn it! Can't we just start again?

• You are my best friend. Each time I take steps, upright or regretful, you are constantly on my side. Even with all of my unwise battles, you never thought of leaving me behind. It’s terribly true whilst I entrusted evil doings against you. You simply walk on me, touch my face, and whisper gentle words, with sadness in your eyes…”I wish I could tell you why”… and walk away, glimpse back at me… with a smile in your face.

• My favorite part of my life is when I have you.

• I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. How I love you. How I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.

• There are so many words, yet there are no words, for when I look into your eyes, no words need to be spoken, and the warmth of your smile is a statement in itself. And how could I ever try to explain the trembling in my body when I touch your face? There are no words to explain an emotion, so I open to you my mind, that you might walk among my dreams and memories. Then...and only then, you might understand my silence

• Someday, I will find my destiny. On that day, I hope that you will be there.

• Whether it was chance or that thing called fate that brought me to you, I really can't say, and I don't believe it really matters. For I have been lucky enough to have the opportunity to hold you, not just in my arms, but also in my heart. And should the winds of time blow hard enough to take you from my arms, you can rest assured they will never take you from my heart.

• Isn’t it ironic? The things we don’t search for in life always find its way to us.

• If I hear you say I love you and I fall, you've got me!

• This is my biography, the story of my life. I've done everything I know to find victory but...everything fails for me no matter how hard I try.

My Smiles

My smiles...it started when i saw an angel..an angel who guided me to the world where you are a part of. We walked together in a space i can't imagine. Spend the whole night sitting on a bench on top of the clouds. Then I began to talked about you. I saw tears fell out of her eyes. I wonder why she started to cry. "I won't be staying long for you", she said. Then she hug me and whispered, "I have a wonderful time with you. When you go back in time, you'll have all my memories and you will always have smile in your heart." When I open my eyes, you were there. You were hugging at me. I shook my head. Even puzzled thinking who's that angel in my dream, I smiled and said to myself, undoubtedly, I know who was that angel...

Guess you wanna know...",)